Saturday, July 26, 2008



It’s come to this. I finally sit down to write. My state of mind is quite serene, but the state of Bali is deliriously hectic. I have been on vacation from India for nearly three weeks and I look forward to going back, even if for only a day to Kolkata en route to Europe. Before I head back up and over the equator, I thought I would attempt to rekindle the blog and thereby encapsulate yet another strange world. I dare say that by now I have learned about two worlds within the one mishmash of nations and economies that we call the globe.

Bali and to a lesser degree, the other Islands in the Indonesian archipelago is a foreign tourist haven. Better yet, a hive. At times perhaps, a maggots nest. Without wanting to drudge up derision and create the perception that somehow I am different or better than the rest of the foreign pleasure shoppers, I’d simply say that I have learned a lot here about the relationship between the tourist development paradigm and the response of the local economy and culture to outside influence. The theme sounds familiar, no, like some far off Himalayan kingdom I once knew. Fortunately for me I can now permanently cross off Bali and for that matter Australia from my list of possible future destinations.

Noah and I made the absolute best of this place, though at every turn there was unexpected pitfall and accompanying hilarity. Let’s see, our first day together here in the party central conglomerate of Kuta began with Noah losing his ATM card out of a hole in the pocket of his newly purchased surfer dude shorts. Next, I spent twenty dollars on calling my own bank’s office to attempt to get the block taken off my ATM which I had incurred by stopping for two hours in the Malaysia airport where I bought a coffee with my card. The following day, we took off on our rented motor scooters and headed down for the famous surf break called Uluwatu on the southern tip of the Island. Upon first glance at the six foot peeling waves and the relatively small crowd, I thought to myself hell I’ll paddle out and give it a whirl. Low and behold a whirl is what I got, along with an ass kicking (foot gouging actually) along the reef lying four feet below the inside of the near break. After twenty minutes of waveless misery and a steadily bleeding right foot, I exited the water only to find a large chunk had been mashed out of the rear of my rented surfboard.

And so the curse of Kuta began. Hobbled and without access to cash, we spent the next day attempting to move ourselves out of Kuta into mellower surroundings and gentler reef breaks. I managed to get the block removed from my card, and strangely enough Noah happened to find his card had been returned to a random hotel near where it had slipped out.

On the third day of our island adventure, we packed our bags, fled the Kuta sprawl, and sped (at a safe speed on fine paved roads) up the coastal highway to the roadside community of Medewi with its famed long left perfect for beginners. The journey was peaceful and so were the three days spent surfing eating and sleeping in the Mai Malu hotel. Sufficiently bored by the fourth day of small and sloppy waves, we sped off again, this time bound for Java, determined to make the impossible crossing with our motorbikes.

Upon arriving at the ferry landing on the far western tip of Bali, it was confirmed what we had already been told that our scooters’ registrations forbid us to remove the bikes from Bali. Alas, it was back to two-footed walking with clumsy clunky board slung under one arm. It took us an additional four hours to reach our destination, the remote jungle outpost dubbed G-Land by the illiterate surfing community.

Noah and I then spent another three days laughing hysterically to ourselves, having more brilliant conversation between ourselves and generally getting pummeled by waves we could neither catch nor ride. The surf camp scene down in this jungle outpost was just that: summer camp for boys. We made the best out of the futile company, bonding mostly with the local staff and passing the between time recapping the highlights of our lives in Brooklyn and gazing upon the glowing horizon of our upcoming decades.

I turned 30 one night amidst this east Java chaos of throbbing wounds, a gourmet dinner of ramen noodles and local mussels, warm beer, and a full moon over one of the most pristine stretches of beach in the world. At the time I thought nothing of it. In fact I could think of little else besides my shallow skin abrasions, swollen lymph in my groin and the impending systemic infection and fever that was to be my birthday present from gawd. But this piece is neither about my personal pain and suffering – which for some reason was far more serene than mentally disturbing – nor the physical details of the trip itself. Sure enough, Bali and Java are some of the loveliest places one can conjure up – full of rich culture, traditional agriculture, pristine landscapes, and relative harmony between the tourist and the local economy.

But today I do not wish to write yet another experience narrative. I know that stories of intriguing interactions are crucial for the readers’ delight and I certainly wish to entertain to the highest degree possible. But truth be told, since leaving India, the experience narrative has been fairly monotonous, mostly involving the pursuit of outrageously good and cheap local pleasures – selfishly hedonistic and quite relaxing. I achieved great success in this but the tales shall remain untold at least for the time being in this particular medium.

What I did come across though - this afternoon at about three while lounging about the poolside in front of my hotel room door – is something less tangible to the outside world but possibly worth telling. It seemed to settle over me like a fine mist rolling through an arid desert. It was the first moment in two weeks that I was alone to fully comprehend the gravity, or rather the lack thereof, in my life of late. I'd been saying throughout the week how much 30 feels like the youngest and most innocent I’ve been since perhaps I was five. Perhaps it is some kind of early mid-life rebirth, compounded by the fact that I am officially a free agent, gaily wandering the planet, for another month or so at least. Sitting by that pool watching the breeze stir the palm leaves there were moments of what could be called perfect composure. Blissful repose, unhindered by responsibility to do more than what was being done. I merely attempted to jot it down in my journal before it was gone.

Unfortunately, the details are again disappointingly sparse in the eyes of the outside world. It is nothing more than finally being able to say that I am happy and I know what I want. That’s that and it deserves only acknowledgment and of course further pursuit.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

VIS Student Blog

If anyone is interested in reading my students' day-in-the-life pieces which are beutifully insightful and informative, please check out the new VIS blog we created last week. More of their personal and journalistic writing will follow, along with photos and stuff. Feel free to post commnet on their work, it will make them very happy to read. the blog is www.visladakh.blogspot.com enjoy!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Day-in-the-life… part one, until lunch.

I first become awake this morning at precisely 5:58 when a Ladakhi student rings their morning wakeup bell exactly two minutes early. The bell, nothing more than a square shaped slice of iron played with a small section of steel piping, hangs on a stick directly above the earthen cell rooms in which we (staff) live. The nice thing about this routine is that the six o’clock bell is what actually wakes me from the night’s slumber but for another 20 or so minutes I lie peacefully, contemplating the idea of the getting up and what shall come of the day. Perhaps I exaggerate slightly in that some mornings I close my eyes refusing to acknowledge the light and roll back to sleep until just before seven. But lately, with the light starting to filter in around 6:15, I am more and more able to go through this gradual, natural wake up without the lazy lapse back into dream space.

So take today for example. The bell rings and I open my eyes. Immediately I take in the intimate context of my very personal surroundings; the sagging ceiling, the adobe walls, the brightly colored fabric adorning the narrow shelves. I live in a cell, literally, eight by six feet with two small windows and a door. The door opens onto the stone walkway that separates the cell rooms from the garden beds, which currently are home to several bushy rows of chard. I prop my head up on the makeshift but extremely comfortable pillow, usually my down jacket stuffed in a cotton t-shirt. My eyes are pleased by the sight of the cluttered colorful interior of my cellular home. I feel tired but do not succumb to the temptation to persist dreaming. I manage to roll from my low lying and overly narrow sleeping apparatus at around 6:20. Placing my feet upon the carpeted mud floor, I then proceed to throw on the same old fleece pants and shirt that I’ve been wearing all week (laundry is drying on the fence), grab my tooth brush, towel and open the cell room door taking my first few refreshing breathes of the damp cool morning air of the greenhouse’s interior. I slowly walk the stone path preparing to throw open the main door and behold the eastern skyline of the Ladakh range, as the sun is streaming from behind the jagged ridges some 50 kilometers away. Nowadays, it is warm enough at this hour to linger on the driveway, casually absorbing the new day’s light and air while remarking internally upon how profoundly pleasant it is to see the sun rise over the Himalayas and start one’s day in this manner.

Continuing then on my journey east I head up and over the slight hill of the driveway arriving in less than a minute at the flap door of the bathroom complex, also a south facing, half greenhouse, half earthen barracks type structure. The main row of sinks, contained within the exterior greenhouse side of the structure, is connected by another stone pathway to yet another row of garden beds. This whole space becomes exceedingly hot during the afternoon, so much that so that I can easily work up a sweat doing my laundry before heading into the interior side of the structure where the shower rooms are located. Still the morning is cool but no longer cold. I turn on the tap from the sinks and - as of last week - the water flows forth freely. No more hauling buckets from the spring as the great March thaw has now penetrated all of the campus plumbing, including the kitchens and bathrooms. As James, my co-teacher pointed out yesterday, it is actually quite a blessing that we began here under dire conditions of extreme cold and cold related breakdowns, for now that the campus is alive with warmth and Spring activity, our appreciation for functional plumbing and the rest of the homespun ecological infrastructure is all the more. In the peak of the afternoon, it is indeed quite luxurious to bath in three gallons of nearly steaming solar heated water. But for now, I take a few splashes of cold water and pat my face dry with a cotton towel, which for some reason provides amazing satisfaction like nowhere else. One level more awakened I now return to the cell room complex for tea making and further preparations.

Our community kitchen is conveniently located at the last room of the far (eastern end) of the cell complex. When I open the door, I nearly trip over one of the two campus cats, who is exiting on my right just as I enter. These cats are fairly annoying with their continuous loud and high pitched meowing, except of course when they are eating or committing some food related mischief. God only knows why they are always making such a fuss when they certainly seem to be eating more than their fair share, relative to all the other intentional and accidental members of the community including, cows, chickens, semi-wild dogs, and a few crafty mice that inhabit the kitchen wall closest to the slop bucket. Incidentally, not a drop of food, or biomass for that matter, is wasted here in Ladakh. Without having experienced many other high altitude deserts, I would venture to say that this place in general practices the most complete and waste-less form of resources consumption out of anywhere on the planet. Here at SECMOL, cows and chickens are fed every last food scrap from onion peels to egg shells. As a result, there is no such thing as kitchen compost, only that of the toilets. Ladakhis are not able to practice cover cropping (the tilling under of half grown grasses and leguminous stalks) for they believe, and rightly so, that no green matter should be used for fertilizer if it could be used as animal fodder instead. This is not to say that green manure would not be a great benefit to the soil fertility of the region, but simply that the animals are a much higher nutritional priority. As a result of these culturally defined ecological practices and my own breakfast habits, I’m quite certain that the SECMOL cows have daily been consuming a very healthy meal of green tea leaves and crushed ginger amongst other bits of stale bread, lentils, and the occasional smattering of apricot jam.

Our community kitchen is small swampy little place with low ceilings, rickety tables, a makeshift sink with a drain I constructing entirely out of used bottles and scrap sections of plastic piping, but nonetheless, it has proven to be an enormously popular gathering spot for groups of Vermonsters and Ladakhis alike. With the tea boiled and a generous spoonful of fragrant Kashmiri honey added, I proceed out the door of the kitchen and plop my self down on the mud brick wall separating the pathway from the garden beds in order to sip my tea and stare off into space. Or, if I’m in a particularly jazzed up morning mood, I’ll read or write down dreams. Either way, this fifteen minutes of focused sitting, sipping, and staring is quite appreciated as I think of all the myriad other things I could be doing with morning time were I somewhere else…

Finally, the cup of tea is empty and I look at my watch. It’s 7:00 so I now proceed up to do a little bell ringing of my own. I take note of the quality of my rings and the expression contained within each tone and meter of the whole episode. This bell signifies that yoga class will be starting soon, and for many of the VISpas also serves as their last call to get out of bed. Yoga is of course optional, and most mornings draws about 5-7 students. It’s actually the first time in my life that I have had such a regular practice, and so I am quite grateful and indebted to the ones who initially asked me to do it, and to those who continue in persisting so that it has indeed become a regular feature of the program and something that I actually look forward to. The class is relatively short, only 45 minutes or an hour depending on how late we start and how hungry we are when the breakfast bell rings sometime between 8:15 and 8:30, but we compensate for time with intensity. My teenage students are surprisingly eager to be put through the wringer of ample jump backs and inversions and contortions that I would have certainly dreaded at 7 in the morning when I was 16. But alas this is Ladakh and the light is so pure and there is really nothing else to do until it warms up and they tell me starting the day with yoga makes them feel more awake and alive throughout, so I concur. We continue to learn more asanas, develop the whole breathing thing, meditate for a few minutes, chant om together and occasionally do the whole routine while listening to some nasty hiphop such as this morning’s Eardrum by Talib Kweli. Again it seem to be all about appreciation from afar, contrasts between old and new.

After Yoga, we’re already late for breakfast, which if it is extremely popular as it was with today’s chapatti, butter and homemade apricot jam, then we run the risk of missing out entirely. We arrived in the kitchen at 8:25 to discover breakfast was finished and none had been saved. In another more volatile setting, this incident could possibly have created waves of discontent, but fortunately we easily decided to head back to the community kitchen to make our own meal of eggs, onions, and spinach (from five feet away), topped off by generous dollops of the Velveeta-like canned - yes canned in a New Delhi factory - cheese. All this for six people in 20 minutes, leaving just enough time to make it over to the main building where our morning meeting had already begun in the VIS classroom.

The order of our classes is flexible. Yesterday, English was first. James opened with an in-class writing exercise on the concept of emptiness, which we have been eagerly applying to our studies of Buddhist history, philosophy and literature. Next came a discussion of Rushdie’s short story, the Hair of the Prophet, as part of a larger author and context study relating to the history of the Kashmir Valley. As a first year teacher working with such amazingly motivated and intelligent students, James has been able to successfully launch many facets of an English curriculum that is both thematic in its approach and intimately analytical in regards to the place based literature he has chosen. The students perpetuate the open ended discussion while at the same time they are continually pushing to find the discreet knowledge buried within the English curriculum and bring in out in workshop format.

In history class, which followed yesterday at 10:20, we began with Tess’ (student led) discussion on the Indian and J&K state constitutions in order to better understand the special provisions of autonomy originally set out for the state of J&K.. We are currently reading a brilliant analytical account of the now 60-plus year conflict surrounding the Kashmir Valley and the Indian state of Jammu and Kashmir, of which Ladakh is the unspoken third part. When I first came across this book, written by an Indian born, Oxford educated, Harvard published author named Sumantra Bose, I was completely taken aback by how effective it was in both its educational-informative approach and the objective analysis. But by no means is it a dryly written scholarly text that could only be read by a select population. From my personal reading of this book, I was convinced that not only was it entirely appropriate for high school students but that there was an overwhelming reason to read it during our place based semester on Ladakh. Indeed the 60-year dispute over the sovereignty of the Kashmir Valley and the legitimacy of India’s claim on the entire state’s allegiance is extremely convincing in and of itself. In addition to the chronological facts leading up to and following independence, Bose provides an unavoidably compelling (emotional) window into the outrage created by India’s near complete denial of democratic rights to the citizens of J&K and its violent repression of political activity in the Valley for past 60 years. One cannot help but feel some understanding if not compassion for the reluctant secessionists of the Valley who took nearly 40 years and two generations of hope to finally be transformed into the armed rebels that have become commonly known today as simply militants. The author also clearly identifies the Jacobin tendencies of the original Kashmiri political leadership led by Sheik Abdullah in its formative years as major factor leading toward the corrupt authoritarian style of government that followed and later became its trademark. And similarly, the reader comes away with an unbiased and extraordinarily accurate perspective (if such a thing is possible) on the nature of Pakistan’s thorn-in-the-side, provocateur role in initiating each of the three successive wars with its goliath neighbor as well as supporting and sustaining the armed separatist groups of the Valley. Though Pakistan and the Kashmiri groups themselves have not exactly been role models of democratic freedom, it is overwhelmingly clear that with India lies the root causes of the conflict as well as the main responsibility and capacities for finding its resolution. As the model of secular democracy in the region, there was hope all along and continues to be to this day, that India might successfully bring J&K separatists of the Hurriyat Conference along with Pakistani leadership and paramilitary groups to the table for a lasting dialogue and reconciliation process that will once and for all address the grievances and borders that have remained unsettled since October 1947. The class dialogue created around this book has thus been difficult and passionate with no shortage of questions both factual and conceptual. Next week we move into a comparative study with several other contemporary ethno-regional conflicts – Bosnia, Israel Palestine, Cyprus, Sri Lanka, and Northern Ireland - with the goal of bringing about a clearer understanding of how these strains are fundamentally not limited to one religion or another, but that they are universal and the solutions themselves are present and attainable through sustained and systematic efforts at cooperation and mutual understanding…

After History, it’s tea (sweet with milk as opposed to salty with butter) time from 11:15-11:30, though lately most of us have opted out due to the unpleasant taste and smell of the cow’s milk which most theorize is due to the cows being fed copious quantities of semi rotten onions. Sweet teatime, with or without actually consuming, provides a casual transition before work hour starts at 11:00. Work hour yesterday was particularly varied, with at least seven different groups of students (always intercultural), consisting of 5-7 members each. One of the main ongoing work hour projects of the past week, and one that I have chosen to be diligently involved in, is the shoveling out of two (of the six) composting toilets and transporting the mostly well-composted humanure out to the fields in front of the kitchen. The traditional Ladakhi compositing toilets have been improved upon here at SECMOl in that each toilet here has two lower (catchment) chambers so that one can be filled while the other is full and decomposing for up to one year. Each chamber is approximately 5 by 10 feet long and nearly 15 feet high. Needless to say, the process of chopping down one of these fecal mountains and shoveling out the subsequent “tailings” takes a little bit of getting used to. Though I am generally open to new experiences and adventurous, I still find myself protesting quite vocally when the pick ax strikes an uncomposted and downright moist area of this supposedly two year old pile. For the most part thought, the system works. Each new delivery is mixed from above with a shovel of dirt, straw, and/or cow manure, thereby making for a balanced carbon-nitrogen product, which, as it exits the lower chamber via our shovels and axes, shows barely a trace of its original form. There is however a distinct humanure scent, that lingers and at times wells up to the point of making me question the sanity and sanitation of the whole process. But again this is Ladakh and the reality is our food intake is generally quite simple, healthy, chemical-free, and whatever bacteriological/viral content that exists in the manure would have a much better chance of contaminating the kitchen than the garden, the wheel barrow or the shovel handles. Point is that we accept it and acknowledge that this really is a solution that so many western environmentalists like to advocate, but that we are actually practicing it and learning its pros and cons and hopefully improving upon the age old technique so as to make it safer, more effective, and even competitive in the modern context.

Most other work hour projects are currently revolving around the preparation of our next major science project, the new solar hot water heater. The biggest component of the prep stage will be the mud brick production. One group of students has been filtering fine clay from a streambed on the far eastern side of the campus and hauling sacks of this raw material over to the framing and drying area near to the water heater construction site. Some students have just now begun mixing the clay with 5% cement, which is not the traditional method, but in this case will ensure that the super structure of the water heater will be solid and completely impermeable. Next phase is to mix in the water and begin pouring the batter into 3 by 5 inch molds and laying them in the sun to dry for one week. When we return from our trek next week, we’ll have about 200 bricks with which to begin the layered construction of the heater. The walls will consist of bricks, surrounded by copious amounts of waste plastic insulation, followed by an exterior surface of mortar to trap the heat and block the effects moisture. On the inside of the brick structure, we’ll lay down the black ceramic tiles we so faithfully hauled (as carry on luggage) from Delhi back at the beginning of the semester. Once the interior is sealed and the plumbing has been installed, we’ll design and construct the plastic frame and over-house to provide the necessary extra insulation needed throughout the winter months. All of this should be completed during the two weeks after we return from our next trek and before the final exhibitions begin.

Up above the bathroom complex, another group of students are installing new plastic water storage tanks to replace the old array which we’re located inside the bathhouse directly above the interior row of sinks. Wangchuk and the original designers of the school had felt strongly that old steel (oil) barrels should be used whenever possible as they would otherwise become waste. Unfortunately over the years, the amount of labor and time required to repair leaks sprung at rusty seams and welded joints has far outweighed the original goal of conservation and waste reduction. With the new insulated array of plastic tanks, the system will be much simplified and hopefully require far less energy in maintenance.

Beyond these infrastructure projects, work hour is also the time to knock off major group cleaning operations, such as hand-washing all the curtains in the school, of which there are many many used to regulate the solar heating systems’ windows and doors. Mostly though, the rest of the daily maintenance, cleaning of bathrooms, animal related chores, managing of stocks and supplies is all conducted during the half hour responsibility period that immediately precedes breakfast lunch or dinner depending on the nature of one’s responsibility. These responsibilities also include the more paperwork-based duties of running the hostel’s accounts, shopping for food and supplies, running the school canteen, and managing the whole of the operations between SECMOL students VIS students and staff. All in all the campus is indeed student run. We teachers find ourselves in slightly more flexible rolls as we make suggestions and offer input, but in the end are completely integrated into the equitable work sharing systems that have been developed here over the past 15 years. In terms of work sharing and responsibility, there really is no separation here based on status or authority of any of the members, and in that way it is indeed one of the most democratic and participatory communities I have ever witnessed.












Thursday, February 14, 2008

First Lesson


For science class this morning, the whole bunch of us American students and teachers - 15 in total – were led through a detailed walking tour of the SECMOL Campus’s solar technologies. The purpose was to begin to understand and appreciate the energy and design principles that have been successfully implemented on the Campus over the past 15 years, so that perhaps during the course of our semester we (Americans) might be able to contribute to the massive ingenuity that already exists here. Our guide for the morning was Acho Norgay, the 25-year old former SECMOL student who now coordinates, engineers, and teaches the science and technology program on the campus. Norgay is one of those all around spontaneous, ingenious souls who intimately understands problems on the ground from a local perspective, yet can and does tackle them with new and innovative ideas and practices. He comes across as a careful contemplator of whole systems, and definitely not as one who is inclined to be wooed by foreigners and their dreams of progress. He understands the underlying dynamic of any development scheme whether it be indigenous or externally mandated; namely that building cooperative human relationships is the crucial foundation, the alpha and omega of any successful project.

Before setting out on the tour this morning, Norgay informed us quite succinctly that no matter what we attempt to do here – from the everyday chores and maintenance responsibiltities to the semester projects including the installation of a new solar water heater and insulated greenhouse – we must first develop our own capacity to relate. We must first put ourselves on common ground with the Ladakhis who have successfully invented and managed this place from scratch. To find that equal footing should not be difficult per se, but potentially it will require of some of us a fairly radical shift in style and approach. The main lesson I got out of Norgay’s introductory talk – clearly supported by my actual experience of the past week - was that essentially anything is possible here if we begin with the effort to understand and communicate our desire to help, and of course that the assertive, self-assured (American) approach should be dispensed with immediately. This all may sound quite obvious to someone who is not intensely personally and physically involved in the life of Ladakh, but for me it has indeed been the most fundamental of learnings thus far. And finally, I am starting to get it. First observe and then get involved on their terms and offer new ideas and innovation when possible. This could be summarized as active cooperation. The systems here are already highly developed, complex, and extraordinarily successful considering the extremes of life in Ladakh. The physical parameters of climate, resource availability, general remoteness, and exposure are enough to make me question at times why people decided to settle up here in the first place. Tenuous is the word. And with that thin thread of physical subsistence, people here are of course - as it has been said many times over - some of the most vibrant and happy in the world. It is an obvious irony and one that needs to be personally reconciled over time with an understanding of Ladakhis’ attitudes and philosophy toward life. Regardless of my own process of coming to terms with the culture I find myself in, our group's overall ability to blend and settle in with SECMOL students is uncanny. Right now, they’re all downstairs having a big Valentine’s Day dance party and there’s no way I can go on writing this and ignoring all the laughter and music. Plus the cake is coming out soon and I haven’t had a proper dessert in a month… so Happy Valentine’s day from Shangri La.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

January 10, 2008

--Delhi--
Sitting in my hotel room in Majnukatila, the Tibetan refuge colony of Delhi, watching the Guns N Roses’ classic Welcome to the Jungle on VH1. This is India, land of contrasts and this is urban contemporary pop culture on the planet Earth; a big beautiful mess and it really doesn’t matter where on the planet you are. That is not to say Indian contemporary pop doesn’t embody its own vastly complex traditional identity, because like every other striving-to-be-modern society on the planet, there is no escaping the past. I read today in the Times of India newspaper that one language of the world becomes extinct every 14 days. This to say that tradition is being devoured, being driven to oblivion by an ever encroaching modern consumer. The Consumer of consumers, with its pervasive dream quest is perhaps nothing more than the ancient desire itself, that which gave life to growth, that which animated the human spirit to go beyond itself and to give birth to the ego. Now it is that this primordial child had grown up and is eating its parents alive. But this is a good thing in the paradoxical world of human development; we must constantly destroy that which feeds us and kill the Buddha when we see him on the road. So here in India, the Buddha is slain every day, and tradition is feeding innovation and the planet is welcoming everyone. There is no shortage. The dogs are getting fat in the streets. The cows are gods and the elephants roam freely. On the news, people are promoting automobile ownership as a basic human right.
But: sexuality is so conflicted in the swamped version of modern India, that men are compelled to desperately grope (and worse) unsuspecting women on a crowded street. “Eve teasing” they call it. Some how that name provides legitimacy and also serves to isolate the act from the broader environment that spawns such behavior. And depraved sexuality is only the beginning. How about last week’s fun story of a Tamil Nadu village mob that had gauged the eyeballs out of one its teenage sons for attempting to elope with an upper caste girl. Or the two inch box in yesterday’s Times of India that casually mentioned a wedding party’s tour bus that had plummeted into a ravine killing all 38 members aboard. A billion people all living and dying together in close quarters; add cultural fundamentalism and a uniquely vicious form of populist democracy and there you’ve got the not so cheery side of 21st century India.

But then: Economists report a three fold increase in the size of the middle class in the past 15 years, from 4% of the population to 14. Some say it’ll be 50% by 2030 but that may be a lusty projection of the mood, or perhaps not. Nobody really knows what the beast has in store. In fact nobody really cares, because like everywhere, it’s everybody for itself. Women support selfish men, even if India and now the US can have one as a president. Top dog is the goal, but for men it’s easier to hold the illusion as reality. In Buddhism the illusion is the proof of reality. But this must be recognized in order to move forward in development. And who really believes in spiritual development anyways? How do you measure someone’s commitment to the path? How genuine is the desire? How present is the path? Religion is convenient, devotion occasional when needed… Suffering, the first noble truth. When do you move on to the second, identification of the cause, let alone the third identification of the solution and finally an impulse to act, the fourth and final noble truth. The temperature has increased over the last few days in Delhi – from the dog days of 2 Celsius - and now it smells like the sewer in my hotel, instead of just on the street.

Now, in the mountains of Kashmir: I’ve found a little cabin where I can settle – for a week. Life is very comfortable. It has just snowed four feet and I am getting ready to ride 14,000 foot Himalayan powder tomorrow. But right now, I seem to have been caught watching the boob tube – ain't no running water or heating but there’s satellite TV with 1300 channels. And what do I find but the worst best horror flick ever created, The Grudge 2. How long will I sit through it and its rapid fire commercials. I should really turn it off but my TV karma is very strong indeed.
Yes I know what it is now. “Reliance Mobile Blog, I share the my diary with the whole world, because in my world there are no strangers. What’s your world?” Commercial interrupted my thought stream. Literally, it coincided with my exact thought. The blog. The diary. In my world there are also no strangers only gadgets. Things that make me closer to everybody and farther from myself. Myself. The first noble truth indicates that suffering is the result of ignorance. Ignorance means believing that the self exists; that the self can be indulged by the satisfying of its cravings and desires. The self that craves is the ego. The ego is the purveyor of this ignorance. The fear of being alone. The fear of being all one. The Buddhist way of seeing requires me to make a major leap. Perhaps this is why I’ve come here to Ladakh and Kashmir, not to sit in this cabin and watch TV.

Later, everything is resolved. The mountains take care of everything. After five days of continuous activity skiing eating and sleeping, I'm headed down to Srinagar, the Kashmir Valley, Clinton dubbed most dangerous place on earth for writing, relaxation, and meeting people. That also turned out well.

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Off I go, no longer getting there, but arriving and in a matter of a few hours, BEING there!

Happy Happy and Hopeful New Year to all!!

Stay tuned and perhaps I might someday soon write something of substance once again. Until then, may all beings be happy and free, especially when they go back to work from the long holiday.
Namaste from Beirut...